My True Story #No97
"I screamed and passed out on the floor. After I brought myself to stand up, I grabbed my coat and headed for the road by campus, hoping to jump in front of a lorry and end it all." - Meg
"Hi everyone! The picture above is me the first night out at uni after christmas this year. Before going to uni I’d struggled with a mixture of mental health disorders; some diagnosed, some not. So understandably, I was looking forward to a fresh start; where I could live life on my own terms, away from the bullying and anxiety that seemed to follow me wherever I went.
The first term of uni was amazing, I’d made friends with people who I felt at home with and who I thought understood me. A lad in particular who I counted as my brother let’s say his name is sam who i trusted with everything and who promised to always keep me safe. At the time I was also seeing one of our mutual friends. I was naive enough to think I was the only one who he was seeing.
So, this night out was Sams girlfriends birthday. We’d all gone out but on the way home he began to have a panic attack, so I had invited him back with me to make sure he was okay. That night he sexually assaulted me and left me broken.
I confronted him the next day to tell him what happened since he couldn’t remember anything and he apologised.
The following day, I was told that the lad who I'd been seeing was cheating on me with 5 other girls. After hearing this, I screamed and passed out on the floor. After I brought myself to stand up, I grabbed my coat and headed for the road by campus, hoping to jump in front of a lorry and end it all.
I was truly and utterly broken. This was the last straw and i’d had enough.
Everything happens for a reason so the fact that I saw my two best friends on my way to that road was a sign from someone not to jump and to keep going. And i’m so glad I did.
I’ve started the process of reporting him to university and the police. It hasn’t all been good; I’ve suffered with anxiety and paranoia because of this but you have to take every day as it comes and believe that everything happens for a reason; that everything you’ve gone through is crafting you into the best version of yourself.
I feel that everyone hides their insecurities and faults behind the mask of social media, but I think it’s only when people see the real you and all of these things, that you can finally start to accept yourself and others accept you too.
ps. if anyone is ever in need of someone to talk to or needs a friend then you can contact me through my social. stay safe and never give up <3"
True Story told by @meg_mcglynnxx
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