My True Story #No80
"I developed suicidal idealation, I became fascinated with death, and fully believed it was the only way out. Until I decided to get help..." - Charlotte
"Im a 16 years old girl, currently studying photography in college and living the highlight of my teen years.
However, 4 years ago, in 2016, I started to struggle with depression. The first year was the hardest, I isolated myself from my friends and family. I became addicted to self harming. I threw my education out of the window and stopped caring about my life altogether.
Since then I've been on a constant rollercoaster. Not only struggling with the everyday teenage struggles, I went through extremely depressive phases and never really came out 'on top'. I developed suicidal idealation, I became fascinated with death, and fully believed it was the only way out. Until I decided to get help.
I went to my local GP and told them everything. This was the scariest, but the best decision I have ever made. I was put on different therapy courses and different antidepressants.
But I eventually found what was best for me.
I came out of high school with amazing grades. Im currently on Zoloft which is a huge life saver for me right now. I occasionally go to family therapy with my mum, which I never imagined would help. But im now so close with my mum, which is a big thing for us.
I'm still not perfect, I still have days when I struggle, but thats okay. Because I know that I dont have to hide it behind a fake smile.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination. Im happy right now, but I might stumble onto a day where im not. So I've got to appreciate my happiness now.
The photo isnt amazing quality. But its a photo from when I was so happy, that I couldn't stop smiling. I was going through a big change at the time, and I was very afraid of the future. But I was happy because I was with friends who I knew had my back."
True Story by Charlotte @cat_toft