My True Story #No52

"I’ve been suffering from depression on and off for years.. recently anxiety has come to join the party too; it’s like having 2 invisible friends or the mental illness version of the angel and the devil on my shoulders..." - @blue_eyed_gem

"It’s a constant battle everyday to get up and get on, rather than hideaway in my bed where I feel safest. I’m currently unable to work and the only time I feel OK leaving the house is with someone else, or to take the dog.

I much prefer listening to music to drown out everyday noise. I can get overwhelmed by too many different noises, and I’m really not good with large crowds of people. I hyper-fixate on things, like listening to the same songs, re-reading the same books or re-watching the same films or tv programs over and over again.

The majority of the time I feel numb to my surroundings, and I feel the empathy I used to have so much of, gradually ebbing away. It gets to the point where I don’t even know who I am anymore...

but an absolute certainty is when someone asks me ‘U Ok Hun?’ I will always say yes I’m fine...

...even when I’m sat on the floor, staring into space and rocking slightly while I’m trying to make myself get ready to leave the house, have a shower, dry my hair - everything is a fight that some days I win and others I lose 🖤

True story told by Gemma, @blue_eyed_gem