My True Story #No44
“I have filled my Instagram with happy faces and filtered selfies but it will never show the other 23 hours and 45 minutes of the day.” - Jess
“I have struggled with my mental health since I was about 13. But back then, it was just you were weird and badly behaved. I have issues with my anger and afterwards I go into a depressive state for a week or so. I’ve pushed so many people out of my life through my outbursts. I have tried pretty much everything, but I’m exhausted from getting my hopes up for a miracle and then not seeing any impact. I’ve got to the point that I don’t get my hopes up when I try something new. I have my journal that I try and write in every night but it hasn’t really helped me understand my emotions. I think I’ve just got accustomed to living with my issues and learnt when to stay away from people to save them the hurt.
There are people on social media who are proud to share their issues with mental health. I will openly admit that I am jealous of that, I wish I could just come out and tell people when I am not ok but I would rather come up with an excuse instead.
I have filled my Instagram with happy faces and filtered selfies but it will never show the other 23 hours and 45 minutes of the day. Yes, it takes 15 minutes to get that picture... sometimes longer, I won’t lie.
True Story told by Jess @jess13woodward