My True Story #No28

"Recently I went on a couples holiday to Ibiza, it was a half relaxation break from my almost two year old but also a way for me to reconnect with my partner and remember we’re young and fun too not just parents. Once we were back in the UK being back home for 20 minutes he packed his bags and left, never to return again..."

"Recently I went on a couples holiday to Ibiza, it was a half relaxation break from my almost two year old but also a way for me to reconnect with my partner and remember we’re young and fun too not just parents. Out there he changed, he wouldn’t come near me and often spent most of his time in the gym. One day when we were at a popular Beach club he got drunk and yelled abuse at me in front of everyone. Leaving me humiliated and in tears, he later abandoned me in this beach club alone with no cash or cards and no way of getting to my hotel on an island Id never been too.

Later when I eventually got to my hotel he broke up with me, he ended our 6 year relationship and left me alone to look after our toddler.

I didn’t work as I was a stay at home mum and I had no savings. Once we were back in the UK being back home for 20 minutes he packed his bags and left, never to return again. Two weeks I spent crying myself to sleep and crying whenever my son wasn’t around. I didn’t eat, sleep or do anything. But I picked myself up, I got the first job I interviewed for, I pay for our rent and bills. I bought myself a car (as he took our car from us too) and I’ve booked myself a solo trip to Dubai to find some peace in myself and learn to love myself again. These photos are from the worst day of my life. I’m smiling but I was heartbroken. My heart is still mending and I’m realising more than ever that social media portrays only what you want it too.

My favourite quote is ‘Be kind always as you never know what someone else is going through’.

People think and often say to me ‘you have the best life I wish I had your life’ because I have designer bags, shoes and clothes. I went on 4 holidays a year and I never paid for anything but deep inside I was sad, I had huge insecurities about my face and body and I suffer badly with Post natal depression and anxiety. We can use Social media to be a key part of our development not a way of hiding our truth. We just have to normalise the fact that sometimes we are not OK and that is normal."

Story told by @gulshahxox