My True Story #No12

"This picture was taken and uploaded 3 weeks after I had gone in and had an emergency C section and woken up to my baby dead after dying from a placental abruption at 36 weeks.

It was the day after my husband and I had buried him..." - Jade, UOkHun.co.uk

True STORY #No10

That One Pic

"This picture was taken and uploaded 3 weeks after I had gone in and had an emergency C section and woken up to my baby dead after dying from a placental abruption at 36 weeks.

It was the day after my husband and I had buried him.

I had posted this because I was so worried I had a label over my head screaming I was the mum of a dead baby and wanted them to see I was fine.

I Wasn’t Fine.

At that time I couldn’t leave the house without taking some form of medication or getting drunk first. what people don’t see here is the giant pad I was wearing for the bleeding and how I hadn’t slept that night from crying and screaming. I put on makeup and squeezed into some form of clothes.

I try to be very open and honest about my grief and how it fuels my anxiety but my Instagram is constant photos of me out and about with my little family because the truth is going anywhere solo or without my husband there makes my head spin and imagine every possible bad scenario to the point it’s easier to stay home, which then creates a circle of getting depressed because I feel caged. I work hard every day to get up shower and dress and luckily have a supportive family and a bouncy 3 year old who doesn’t let me pass life in PJ's on the sofa..."

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