My True Story #No41
Updated: Oct 21, 2019
"This photo was the first time I wore makeup in about a month. The only reason I posted this was to convince people that I knew that I was still 'living my best life'..." - Laura
"This photo was the first time I wore makeup in about a month. The only reason I posted this was to convince people that I knew that I was still 'living my best life'.
But in reality, I was going through a really dark time.
I was incredibly lonely, anxious and depressed.
I had just decided to defer my PhD due to my mental health, I wasn't working and was too anxious to even leave the house.
However, I wanted to show the world I was okay, when I really wasn't.
I thought posting this photo would make me feel better and less isolated, but it didn't at all...
The loneliness is still something I’m struggling with. I find short-term ways to cope but still want that connection with someone. It’s something I’m working on and hopefully will achieve soon.
I’m now better than I was when I took this photo but there’s still an uphill battle and I take one day at a time.
If you feel like you have to show a different side on social media, remember there are hundreds of thousands doing the same.
It’s okay to be vulnerable and take a break from social media.
The connections with people and real-life experiences in reality will always make you feel better than the artificial likes on instagram."