My True Story #No23
"I am quite tired in this photo, sleep doesn't always come easily at the moment..."
"At a couple of points through the past few months, things got too much & I thought the barrage of negativity would never end..."
"My Dad has been seriously ill & after Chemo/radiotherapy, had an operation to remove a tumour in his bowel on the 4th April. I've been going to visit him in hospital twice a week & then a care facility when his health seemed to improve. All that while working full time & trying to keep smiling/not worry. At a couple of points through the past few months, things got too much & I thought the barrage of negativity would never end. More recently my job has been getting to me, with continued targets but a quiet Opticians, I didn't find it easy with the weight of my Dad's illness on my shoulders.
Luckily I've had the great support of my family, friends & a few work colleagues, often turning to movies & great music to keep my mind occupied.
Then last week I had an unexpected meeting at work (after first being told I had a couple of weeks extension due to being on holiday for 2 of the 4 weeks of extended probation) It really wasn't going well, I ended up loosing my job there & then. But instead of being upset or lost, wondering how I'm going to pay my rent & bills, I've stayed positive!
I'm somehow able to focus on tasks that I haven't been able to do while running back & forward to work/the hospital. Things like getting my house tidy & really focusing on positive thinking affirmations.
"It's like losing my job is the wake up call, the kick up the backside I needed to rethink my life..."
It's like losing my job is the wake up call, the kick up the backside I needed to rethink my life and start looking for another, better job. Because I really wasn't enjoying working there & I couldn't see the mess my house or my mind had got into until now.
My Dad is back in hospital but hopefully on the way to some sort of recovery. I'm not sure where my focus & positive determination is coming from. But I'm choosing to stay positive because I've been depressed in the past & I really don't want to be there again.
It's all about staying in the moment, resting when need to & getting stuff done when I can. Instagram Positive Pages & writing down thoughts really helps too when I do struggle.
I hope this helps someone feel they can cope with whatever life throws at them." @clareybobble