My True Story #No18
“I’ve always struggled with low self esteem and confidence, I vividly remember comparing my weight to classmates at 7 years old...”
“ I’ve always had an unhealthy relationship with food, but in 2016 at the age of 34 it became chronic. I literally starved myself for 6 months. I ended up at just under 6 stone, I developed severe depression anxiety and paranoia. Eventually I developed psychosis and ended up being treated in a psychiatric hospital. It was a massive wake up call, my self confidence on the floor. I very slowly, with support and medication was able to attend my local recovery college ran by the NHS. I volunteered with them and then trained as a peer support worker! I then got a job in my community mental health team supporting people experiencing mental illness.
The medication I was put on stopped my psychosis, but it also had the side effect for me to put a lot of weight on fast.
I carried on struggling with this, and also began to find supporting people so poorly and going over my own recovery journey a lot! So I left my job after a year. I’ve been out of work for the last year, struggling at times, but also trying my best to start again. It hasn’t been easy. But having met such inspirational people along the way and realising that there is support out there, I have managed to carry on. Tomorrow I start a new chapter! I’m going back to college, at the age of 37! Doing Beauty Therapy. I’m so excited, extremely nervous but I know this is what I want to do and as long as I use the coping skills I’ve learned along the way and reach out for support as and when I need it, I know I’ll be just fine. I’ve always been someone who feels I just am not good at anything, don’t have skills, personality- but I’ve learned to love myself, flaws and all. I’m proud of what I’ve been through and excited about what’s to come. Never give up...”
First picture is one in the height of my eating disorder I captioned ‘today is a good day’ it was far from a good day! The other is me in my new college uniform- scared, far from perfect, but proud A.F of myself!!!”